Well we made it through Thanksgiving; thank goodness. One holiday down one to go. I use to look so forward to the holidays and spending time with my kids, and family, but now it seems as though I just want to get it over with. Joey does not like anything to change with the furniture so when I move the toys across the room he gets so mad at me. I only wish Joey could understand what Thanksgiving and Christmas is all about; maybe someday, well maybe not!
I was reading an article online the other day that stated that "Mom's of children with Autism have stress similar to combat soldiers, they struggle with daily fatigue and work interruptions. This is the story of my life; most days I walk around trying to remember what I am supposed to be doing, where I am supposed to be going or what I opened the fridge up for. Those were all things I thought would pass after my kids outgrew the infant stage; boy was I wrong. Just sitting in my living room it feels like I am in a war zone; between toys flying, Joey jumping off furniture, kicking and biting me I can see where the similarities come into play. Not to mention the high pitched non stop squealing that Joey has started doing again.
Don't get me wrong I love Joey with all of my heart, but boy is it hard being a Mother to a 6 1/2 year old boy with autism who functions at a 2 year old level. People stare at us and I am sure they are thinking "what a brat that boy is" well if they only knew. I can honestly say that when I was pregnant with Joey 7 years ago I never would have imagined that I would be where I am today. Still having to change Joey's diapers, feed him, change his clothes, brush his teeth, bathe him; wow was my vision all wrong.
Cory has been working 7 days a week 13-14 hour days so that doesn't leave much time for me or the kids; I am okay with Cory not having time for me, but the kids are a different story. I am very thankful to be able to stay at home with the kids although it would be nice if Cory had a job where he worked regular hours so he could help me out once in awhile. Oh well a girl can dream. I am just so thankful to have my Mom and Dad that live 6 houses away; they are amazing Parents/Grandparents and they understand the struggles I deal with daily and they help me tremendously. We are so lucky that Grandma and Grandpa are both young and healthy ;-)
Well I am going to attempt to take the kids to a santa breakfast in the morning with my Mom, Sister and Nieces. We shall see how that goes, I will drive myself just in case I need to escape early.
That precious face of Joey's makes the struggle worth fighting!!!
Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
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